It's amazing how theology happens
to you sometimes.
I've been to rock concerts before.
You buy a ticket, find your seat (sometimes - usually you don't) and spend the
rest of the evening plugging your ears and jumping up and down. I've been to
worship concerts too. You stand there feeling like you should raise your hands
and look dedicated, but you think everyone's looking at you (they aren't) so
you don’t.
This was a worship rock concert. I
was confused. We bought tickets and found our seats. We performed the whole
pre-concert crowd roar; people were leaning over railings, standing in their
rows, running out to the bathroom and back, finding tee-shirts, or sitting in
their seats – and everyone was talking to someone. We all knew the drill and
played out the same scenario that’s happened at every concert I’ve been to. It
was when the music started that I was confused.
All the worship I’ve been too has
had a toned down beat and gentle lyrics. This worship concert was different. The
drums and the lead guitar didn’t sound nice
anymore, they sounded wild. Party wild. Kinda took my breath away. But after all, they’re the opening band.
Guess that’s what you’d expect. I shrugged and smiled, moving a little to
the beat. And then the lead band came out.
Music ripped through the air and
battered our willing ear drums. Vibrations shoved themselves up through the
cement floor and rattled my feet, like laughter. Lights flashed on their rotary
stands, stabbing into my eyes for a millisecond before beaming at the next eager
face.
Thoughts tumbled slowly
and thickly through my mind.
The idea of worship left me and I
began to just sing. There was no hope of hearing my own voice above the roar,
but I opened my mouth and joined with hundreds of others to let the band know
that we were singing too, however unnoticeably.
The pointlessness of trying to make
noise turned my mind back to the words I was singing. “Sing, sing sing, and make music to the heavens! I will sing, sing,
sing, Grateful that you hear us. As we shout your praise, lift high the name,
Of Jesus!” I began to feel them. I stopped trying to sing well and sang to
God. I lifted my face and closed my eyes. “Grateful
that you hear us…” Almost without my consent, my arms lifted and I reached
for the God I was singing to. I was no longer thinking about who was watching,
because God was watching, and taking pleasure.
Finally the rumbling beneath my
feet and the drum beat rattled me back to the auditorium. I began jumping with
the rest of the crowd. And I wondered where the worship had gone. Here we are, having a celebration, I
thought with something bordering on fear, but
this is a worship concert! What were we doing wrong?
Nothing.
We’re not doing anything wrong! We’re celebrating GOD! Call it a
thunderbolt moment if you will, but I think that’s an understatement. I found
myself unable to stop bouncing and singing and reaching up. I had so much
praise inside, and it kept coming out in action and song.
Realizations demand thinking time,
which there was not a lot of during a rock and worship concert. I simply
discovered that God enjoys a celebration. And that it doesn’t take a degree in
theology to discover something like that.
It was a second incident that
completed my lesson. I took up my usual evening stance – sitting cross legged
on the bed with my Bible and journal in my lap, enjoying the silence of my
family asleep. Tomorrow was Bible Study with a few girls from youth group. My
brain slapped me to point out that perhaps
I should actually read the chapter we’ll
be studying tomorrow.
John 2:2- “Jesus also was invited to the
wedding with his disciples. When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to
him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to
do with me? My hour has not yet come.”
His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” …Jesus said to the
servants, “Fill the jars with water… and take [some] to the master of the
feast.” So they took it. When the master of the feast tasted the water now
become wine…” (Bold mine)
And I stopped. Jesus’ statement
caught me. “My hour has not yet come.” Before this night, my question always
remained: If Jesus’ hour to do miracles had not come, why did he do a miracle? An
answer dropped into my head. “To let the party continue.”
What?! “Yes. To let the party continue.” I shook my
head and read further, waiting for a testimony of somebody’s life changed, a
soul given new life through this incident. There was none.
And gradually, the concept merged
with my experience. God enjoys
celebrating.
My first, fleeting thought was Could it be? And then I wondered, more
accurately, Would I want it any other
way?
It’s a bigger lesson in theology
than I’ve had in a while. And I’m still celebrating it.
